Day 9. 10:21p. Pain Level 5.

I'm really tired so I'm gonna try to keep this quick. I went to my primary doc today to talk about what the neurologist said and to discuss getting tested for Celiac. Basically nothing exciting. She ordered the blood test which I am going to go take tomorrow during a break from work and told me that they would call when they got the results. I don't know whether I want a positive or negative back. I mean, I really don't want to have it. I LOVE food, it's my life. Really it is. I know I could adjust but come on, who wants to do that. On the other hand what if I found the answer to all my pain. That would kick so much ass I wouldn't know what to do.

I guess for starters I'd quit taking this medication that makes me sound like a freaking idiot. It has gotten really bad and people are starting to notice. For a while I thought I was doing a pretty good job of covering it up but then tonight I realized that everyone noticed when one of my teammates pointed out that I said the same thing like 3 times in a row but none of it made any damn sense. And I feel like I have to keep reminding people that it's the medication because I don't want them to think that I'm always this stupid. I'm sure they get sick of hearing that too.

Anyway, tonight was my first night back to practice where I felt like I could give it 100% and it felt awesome! It wasn't a heavy endurance practice which is good because that causes me to get overheated which can a) be dangerous while taking Topamax due to decreased sweating, another lovely side effect, and b) be a trigger for my migraines. I feel like I was able to preform to my full ability and it was like I never missed a step. Okay, I was a little more winded and I know come endurance time I'll be dying but my ass is headed to the gym for some cardio asap!

But with fun comes consequences. I now have a migraine, which I knew I would get if I pushed my self tonight. Nothing too bad, just between a 4-5. I can live with that. It was totally worth it!!!