Day 11. 11:12. Pain Level 4.

Yesterday was madness so I didn't have the time to write and today has been crazy to so here's the quick recap. I woke up yesterday with a really bad migraine. It was bad enough that I should have stayed home from work but I couldn't, I needed the money and didn't have the place to move clients to. As the day went on the pain got worse. I called my neurologist but he was out of the office. By that point I was in excruciating pain and crying pretty much hysterically. The nurse advised me to keep ice packs on my head and if the pain didn't go away to go to the ER.

I went home for a bit and took a nap, then went back to work for a few more hours. By the time I got off I could barely drive. As soon as I got home Chris took me to the ER. It was packed full of sick people with the stomach bug that I had last week and drunk bums that had been beat up and it was loud as hell. Luckily I was bad enough that I was called back really quickly. After explaining my situation and what drugs I was supposed to avoid they gave me a concoction of benadryl and a nausea med and a script for loratabs and sent me on my way. I'm pretty pissed because I could have saved a ton of money and taken a benadryl and phenergen at home and it would have done the same thing. It didn't take my migraine away at all, it just knocked me out.

I woke up today still in quite a bit of pain and you better believe that I took one of those loratabs. My doctor still has not called me back even though I called again today and the nurse assured me that he would call me by 4:30p at the very latest. I know he is busy but I cannot continue living like this for the next 2 weeks. The pain is too severe to handle on my own and I can't take off any more work. I know that I can't take any more loratabs because those cause rebounds so that was just a one time thing to get me through the day, but there has to be something that can take the edge off besides motrin.

I'm at a mental breaking point. I really don't think that people understand how hard it is to deal mentally and emotionally with being in a constant state of pain. I could handle it when I had something to take to manage it, but without it I just can't do it. I'm not sure what to do. Hopefully the doctor will call me back tomorrow and we can figure out a game plan.